Today: a totally random collection of things I have been noticing. I’m not even going to try to give this a plan or a structure. I’m just going to write it!
- Yesterday, I gave an astrology session. Afterwards I was able to make a list of “things to work on for next time” without beating myself up that the session didn’t go 100% perfectly. This is definitely progress.
- I am always beating myself up for not having enough ideas. In fact, I even bought this to help me have more ideas (I haven’t really looked at it yet, but it seems awesome.) The other night, I noticed that part of my issues with sleeping is that as soon as I snuggle up in bed and close my eyes, my brain is filled with ideas for stuff.
- Of course, this is a totally useless time for my brain to turn on. But it gives me hope that maybe I can access the idea-generating bit of my brain when I’m, like, fully awake.
- I’m noticing a lot more when I am feeling angry and irritated. On the one hand, that’s probably a good thing if I want to start hanging out with my fire more. On the other hand, it’s really uncomfortable, and I’m finding that I don’t know what to do with it.
- Maybe there’s something in just being with the discomfort. Or possibly getting to know the angry bit of me a bit. I’ve been toying with keeping an “anger diary”, but then I could keep five million types of diary, and do nothing but write diaries all day.
- Maybe “write diaries all day” would be an improvement on “play WoW all day”, though?
- NB: I’m actually not playing WoW all day. I’m doing other stuff, too! I’m looking for things that cheer me up. I’m writing blog posts – definitely an improvement! I’m taking naps (good for me right now when I’m so tired all the time). I’m helping my parents with shopping. There is other stuff. So writing diaries all the time would actually not be all that helpful.
- I’ve recently discovered The Big Bang Theory – two years later than the rest of the world, of course! I just bought the first season from iTunes, and I’ve watched all of two episodes. It’s pretty awesome, though.
- I’m still not done deciding whether I should work on my first chakra or my third. Part of me is wondering if I can do a bit of both. Or alternate days, or something. In any case, “stuff about chakra 1″ is definitely on my reading list.
And I’m done!
Asking for stuff in the comments.
So I haven’t come up with a snazzy not-stolen-from-Havi name for that yet.
I also totally feel bad for asking for specific things in the comments.
And completely ambivalent about responding to comments. I find responses really hard, and I’m experimenting with giving myself permission not to respond. However, I really want there to be friendly discussions in the comments, and it’s kind of impossible to foster that if I don’t take part in them. Plus, I totally don’t want my readers to think that I don’t read and appreciate every comment.
I totally do. (Even the spam!)
So I’m going to go ahead and ask for stuff even though it doesn’t feel that comfortable.
Again, I’m not looking for advice. (You may be sensing a theme here. I really don’t get along with advice.)
But it’d be great to hear what came up for you reading this, or what you’ve noticed about yourself this week.
Yay, comments!
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I also get loads of ideas around sleepy-time. I find it helps to write them down because then I can switch off. Or, sometimes I just get up and do the thing that’s on my mind. It mucks up my sleep – but it is satisfying accomplishing the thing.
One thing I started doing was having some ‘mental space’ toward the end of the day. It’s a bit like meditation, where I’d just lay down, focus on my breathing and let my mind wander. It’d usually start by processing things on my mind, then it’d quieten down and finally would come up with ideas and solutions. When I decided I was relaxed and ready to re-join the world, I’d write the stuff down. Weird and vivid stuff, but interesting and helpful too.
Maybe it’d work for you?
P.S. I do hope this doesn’t fall into your ‘unwanted advice’ category. Just an idea that might be fun to try.
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The Big Bang Theory is a Thing of Crowning Awesome. I am presently watching Season 3 via the medium of Channel 4, and whilst I’ll avoid all spoilers, I can confirm that Wil Wheaton is a guest-star, and he is wonderful.
You know how I giggle sometimes? I giggle *uncontrollably* at the Big Bang Theory.
If it helps at all, I did not notice that the reading didn’t go 100% perfectly.
Today I am noticing that I do not want to go to a business advice session tomorrow, because I sort of don’t want to dirty my lovely organic cosmetics with money. Which is a bit tricky when it’s supposed to be a business and all. Hmm.
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Great list of things you’ve noticed!
Trying to think of what I might have noticed this week, I realised that I was should-ing myself all over the place (I should have noticed more stuff, I noticed that I should be doing this more often, etc.). Interesting…
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