Hey, I gave an astrology session today – and I’m pretty sure it didn’t suck! (My client was lovely, smart, engaged, and insightful. Also I’m pretty sure I gave her some useful information and did the listening thing and maybe we uncovered, or at least talked about, some patterns.)
I was going to use today’s blog post as a post-mortem – and kind of a way to remind my lovely readers that the astrology thing is not dead in the water.
But I’m finding that I don’t want to do that. I want to talk about the other thing that’s been preoccupying me over the past 24 hours. And that’s the chakra thing that I’ve been rambling about all week.
(“Astrology thing”, “chakra thing”, okay. I’m good at things This is totally Buffy-ized language, isn’t it? I so sound like my whole generation.)
Anyway. Chakras.
That book I talked about before – which by the way is Wheels of Life by Anodea Judith, for those who don’t want to click the link – has a little chakra quiz in it. I love those little multiple choice quizzes, which I suppose is part of being brought up on girl’s magazines. So I filled the thing in and totted up my results and I was interested in what it said.
Now, it should be said that all of my chakras are pretty much far from great, according to this quiz. My best chakra was the 5th (which is the throat chakra). But while I’ve been obsessing about this wound over my 3rd chakra, that wasn’t the worst one. My worst one was the 1st chakra. Root chakra. Earth. Grounding.
Not really a surprise, for two reasons.
First: I’m not, not, not a physical person, or a body person. I’m not in touch with my body. I find it really hard to get into my body (this might sound weird to everyone but me). I have never really liked or accepted my body. I’m lazy. I don’t like physical exercise. (People keep telling me that physical exercise will make me feel better. This is not my experience. Maybe that means I’m doing it wrong or something, but you know what? It’s just not my experience. Physical exercise generally makes me feel like shit.)
Second: it kind of makes sense that accessing the fire in my 3rd chakra would be kind of hard, and terrifying, without the earth provided by my 1st chakra. It seems kind of logical that all that potentially-explosive power and energy would seem majorly dangerous without having some way to stabilize it. And that’s what the 1st chakra is for.
Wow. That’s a lot more woo than I ever expected to publish on my blog.
But woo or not, I’m now faced with a decision, I guess. I’ve been thinking that what I would really like to do is to get exploring my 3rd chakra, and try to access some of the fire that right now seems enormously missing in my life. But maybe the thing I really need to do is work on the grounding, on the 1st chakra stuff, so that I’ve got a more solid base to work with when I do get to activating that fire.
There’s a part of me that thinks I’m being lax and lazy and not following through if I don’t go ahead with my original plan.
There’s also a part of me that thinks I shouldn’t rely on any outside information – I should be making decisions all by myself, and therefore the information from that quiz should be disregarded because it came from outside me.
On the other hand, there’s a part of me that thinks that information (that my 1st chakra needs some work) might be useful.
And the part of me that doesn’t want to draw in any more fire without making things safe for it to exist, first.
The point is this: I have stuff to work through on this.
But also: I have options.
The main thing I’m noticing is that I want to learn more about this before making a decision. I want more information, internal and external. I want to play with this chakra concept that seems to have so much to say to me. And I want to help myself be more me.
What I want out of the comments.
Still no advice, please!
But I’d love to hear what this post brought up for you. Anything that went through your mind as you read it. Or anything completely unrelated that occurs to you.
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What went through my mind is that by wondering about whether to listen to this stuff you ARE making your own decisions about it.
The second thing was that Options Are Good.
Hello! The astrology reading definitely didn’t suck, and the information was totally useful, and you uncovered at least a couple of patterns that had been bothering me for ages, but I didn’t know why. Damn Libra. Gets everywhere!
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Reevaluating a plan in light of new information doesn’t qualify as being lax, lazy, or unable to follow through with the original plan. You didn’t know you had options, now you do; exploring them sounds like a good thing to do. Nothing says that exploring your options necessarily means you won’t go back to the first plan. And if the plan changes? No laziness there, but a conscious choice made by considering all of the info available to you.
(I hope this doesn’t sound like the advice you don’t want; those were simply the thoughts that came up while I was reading your post. I hope it was ok to share them.)
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