I still seem to be in a third-chakra kind of place. Today: anger. And irritation. Coming up all over the place.
Wanting things to be mine. My stuff. My space. My time. My energy, and my expression.
Not wanting to be edited or altered.
Wanting to be given space to work on the things I need to work on. (And for some reason, finding that almost impossible today.)
Wanting to be able to take breaks on my own terms.
All of these wants seem to be getting frustrated – sometimes externally, sometimes internally – and that’s making me angry and I don’t know how to deal with it.
I’m doing my usual thing of quashing the angry responses. Because I don’t want to fight. And because things are already pretty tense today and I don’t want to make things even worse. I remember the quality of fights that used to happen, and they were horrible, and I absolutely don’t want to repeat that pattern.
(Yes, I’m being non-specific today.)
Anyway, that’s what I’m noticing today. Anger. Irritation. A desire for space and time and a lot more me-ness than seems to be currently available.
Even acknowledging that? Is helpful.
That thing I’m not calling “comment zen” any more.
Yup – short post, I guess.
I still don’t want advice. I’m not good at anger. And I’m not good at identifying my own feelings and needs. I’m still learning, and I know that. Please don’t try to interpret what’s going on for me here (I’m working on that myself).
But I’d love to hear how you deal with anger – or how you feel about it. Does it empower you? Scare you? Something else?
Also: what’s going on in your world today?
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Short post, maybe, but filled to the brim with noticing and acknowledging – very useful (and powerful) stuff indeed.
As for what’s going on in my world today: a feeling of perpetually running behind on everything, which of course has to be accompanied by a tinge of frustration. And getting tired of feeling like that. Blah. But it’ll be ok.
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