Taking the standards off.

by Lucy Viret on 11/03/2010

So, ladies and gentlemen of the audience. I’m working on a new idea to get myself posting more often, and it’s this: I’m going to try to stop telling myself that this blog has to be Great Writing. Or even that it has to help people. I love that people read this, I really do, but if I’m obsessed with the idea that this blog has to be full of amazing insights, I’ll never write another post.

That’s partly because the nature of my depression (hi, there !) is that I don’t think anything I say is particularly insightful. And it’s partly because, while I’m glad when the occasional cool insight pops up, this is a process blog and it’s about… well, process.

What this blog is mostly going to be full of, is me.

And I’m cool that it’s mostly read by people who kind of cared about me already, or have stumbled across it and found something about me to like. So I’m going to work on making it a little more – well – me-ish.

So: hi there.

I’m trying to get myself writing more often because it helps in lots of ways. The first – this blog, the existence of the blog itself, writing the posts – that helps me to process. Helps me to get stuff out and learn new things about myself. The second – I want to be a writer, dammit! Writing is kind of a prerequisite. So getting the words out is good.

Another thing is connecting with my lovely readers and commenters. You guys are awesome, even if I don’t really respond to comments.

So you might, from now on, get some random ramblings of what’s going on in my world. News and randomness. I might also experiment with the idea of actually planning the occasional post (this would be new!).

We will see.

I’m hoping you’ll hear from me more often.

Goodbye for now!

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