Fog, take two – fighting it.

by Lucy Viret on 02/03/2010

It occurred to me recently that the scary decisions I have to make would be much easier if I had a goal. So I’m sort of working on one.

Right now, the goal itself is really small and vulnerable so I don’t really want to talk about it in public. But I’m making tiny, tiny steps towards it and trying to convince my monsters that it’s doable. Just having it there is making it easier to think about the decisions I need to make.

This is definite forward motion.

And I’m giving myself permission to make this a short entry – and to respond to the fabulous people who left comments on my last post.

I’m also giving myself permission to post something that is not Great Writing.

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In the fog.

February 28, 2010

Dear world-at-large,
I kind of hate the fog.
I especially hate being in the fog when I have to deal with benefits, insurance people, and the HR department at work.
Of course, if I wasn’t in the fog, I wouldn’t need to deal with any of that stuff.
(Note: I really don’t need to be told that I should [...]

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Re-entry.

February 2, 2010

So I’m home again, and settling back into my usual patterns – all the comfortable bits and difficult bits that I’m used to. But with a twist, because I just came back from retreat and everything’s a bit different. Whether this will last or not, I don’t really know, but I feel a bit more [...]

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Home again.

February 1, 2010

Just a quick note to say that I am back from retreat with Havi and assorted wonderful people.
Seriously, the people. Every single one of them is so cool and I feel so lucky to have met them.
It was a crazy-intense, powerful, awesome week. I loved it. There was quite a lot of hard mixed in [...]

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Abnormality.

January 18, 2010

So over the last few days, I’ve discovered a TV show called The Big Bang Theory which you probably all had discovered long ago.
It’s interesting.
It’s kind of painful at times in terms of sheer recognition. There’s a moment in the first episode, for example when one of the central characters is knocked out of his [...]

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Noticings.

January 17, 2010

Today: a totally random collection of things I have been noticing. I’m not even going to try to give this a plan or a structure. I’m just going to write it!

Yesterday, I gave an astrology session. Afterwards I was able to make a list of “things to work on for next time” without beating myself [...]

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Options – maybe.

January 16, 2010

Hey, I gave an astrology session today – and I’m pretty sure it didn’t suck! (My client was lovely, smart, engaged, and insightful. Also I’m pretty sure I gave her some useful information and did the listening thing and maybe we uncovered, or at least talked about, some patterns.)
I was going to use today’s blog [...]

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Angry angry angry.

January 15, 2010

I still seem to be in a third-chakra kind of place. Today: anger. And irritation. Coming up all over the place.
Wanting things to be mine. My stuff. My space. My time. My energy, and my expression.
Not wanting to be edited or altered.
Wanting to be given space to work on the things I need to work [...]

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Fire.

January 15, 2010

All right. I’m giving myself permission to write a quick-and-dirty blog post, because I really wanted to post something today, and if I don’t allow it to be not-perfect, I will not post at all.
I desperately want to have a blog with some actual content in it.
So: here’s what I want to write about.
For years [...]

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Mental images, redux: wounded.

January 14, 2010

So: I did in fact promise actual content the other day, and here’s what I came up with.
A while back I wrote about a mental image I had, about the sticky, spiky stuff in my head. And now I want to write about another one.
I always imagine myself as broken. (I don’t, in fact, know [...]

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